Personal Mission To End Racism
I was born ELANA FELICE STANGER, to Bert and Estelle Stanger
in 1970 at Pelham Bay General Hospital in the Bronx, New York
City, U.S.A. I wasn’t wearing anything at the time. I became
acquainted with my skin, a hue different from and the same as
some of the doctors and nurses, although very similar to my
parents’ hue. I realized we were all hue-men.
When I was 27 I discovered that my given name, ELANA, if you
believe in coincidences, happens to be a perfect acronym for
the 5 major race groups in the United States: European,
Latino, African, Native, and Asian.
Although I have been taught to identify myself as European American,
I am all of them, rolled up into one hue-man, and they are me.
I represent all of them with my being and with my breath. I
love all of them. I stand for all of them, as a fierce ally.
A few years earlier at 25, when I began to make art, I realized
that my given last name, STANGER, could receive a period after
the “T”, and become ST. ANGER. I realized it was a perfect match
for me, given my desire to transform the ogre of racism and
social oppression into a force for unity, healing, and change.
In Japanese, the same letter character that represents “crisis”
also represents “opportunity”. As the “Saint of Anger”, I take
anger, pain, rage, frustration, and disappointment in the world—emotions
that come from living in an oppressed system—and aim to channel
them into something beautiful, constructive, and positive. This
is how I began to sign my paintings.
Growing up in the Bronx afforded me a wonderful opportunity
to get to know people of different cultures—races, ethnicities,
nationalities, languages, sexual orientations, belief systems,
religions, abilities, experiences—and although I was not raised
with a lot of money, I felt privileged in that I was able to
grow up in a very culturally heterogeneous community rather
than a homogenous one. Being raised without a lot of money also
helped my creativity develop and enabled me to learn to value
people and relationships more than things.
Even though I had become separated from my friends of color
due to environmental circumstances—going to different schools,
making new friends with other interests, and the general confusion
that seeps into relationships that cross racial lines in a racist
culture—I was somehow aware on an unconscious level that I was
being given opportunities by this society as a white woman that
were not being given with as much ease to my friends of color,
the people with whom I grew up and loved most deeply. I was
aware of the existence of white privilege—the automatic advantages
society awards to white people and from which they benefit while
people of color are excluded—all based on skin color. Somehow
our society had managed to forget our hue-man-ness.
When it came time for college, I was able to attend a private
school for the first time after having attended public schools
all of my life. This was because the scholarships and funding
being offered by Ithaca College were the equivalent of what
any state university would offer me. Ithaca College, in Upstate
New York, was a wonderful place for learning, with an excellent
student to teacher ratio that enabled a lot of individual attention
and great opportunities for rich classroom discussion. What
was missing was the diversity. The student population was only
2% people of color—and the school did not even know which colors
they were—just lumped them all under the term “nonwhite”. My
move to upstate New York and away from the Bronx left me with
culture shock. I had never seen so many white people in all
my life! Many people think that is a funny thing for a white
woman to say, but it was true for me as it was true for other
whites that had grown up in racially diverse environments. There
was certainly racial tension on the campus, segregation, and
confusion—as there is on every college campus in America. I
vowed that I would have to do something about this situation
before I graduated. This vow inspired the birth of Students
for an Interracial Dialogue (SID).
I founded SID as a campus organization to build bridges across
racial lines and develop intercultural understanding and relationships.
I gained assistance from a number of faculty and from the Office
of Minority Student Affairs—I still don’t know why they call
people of color “minorities” when the majority of the world’s
population is made up of people of color—I think it’s a nasty
trick designed to make us think people of color have less power
than they do. Nonetheless, I facilitated a series of dialogues,
the first of which was attended by 200 people! I had found my
true calling as a facilitator of interracial and intercultural
communication. I felt totally energized and amazingly clear
of mind after fielding questions and channeling the dialogue
between 200 people for its two-hour duration.
Shortly after this, I graduated from Ithaca College with a
B.A. Degree in Speech Communication and a Concentration in Public
Speaking. It was then time to move to New Orleans, Louisiana.
I had been receiving messages from the universe
about moving New Orleans throughout my entire senior year of
college. In other words, I would meet a stranger who would approach
me and immediately begin speaking about New Orleans, or as soon
as I would turn on the TV there would be a story about Huey
P. Long (one of New Orleans’ previous governors), or an image
of a Mardi Gras parade float. It was not a rational decision
based on logic—I knew no one there and nothing about the place—but
there were countless examples of signs and wonders guiding me
alone to this magical place of rich history, food, and culture,
with an African American population of 65% in 1993, and 40%
of the population living below the national poverty line.
New Orleans, bordered by the Mississippi, was one of the main
ports for the “slave trade” early in the history of our country—the
selling of people for money to other people who would buy them
and own them and make them work hard for them and beat them
and rape them and kill them and do whatever they wished to their
fellow hue-men, because they considered them property instead
of what they were and are: hue-man beings just like themselves.
I figured out that, especially given my awareness of my calling,
my purpose there would probably revolve around race relations
work in that environment. Some people called me a “carpet-bagger”—a
“know-it-all northerner” going to “fix” the south. What I learned,
however, is that the north needs just as much “fixing” as the
south in terms of racism, and we need not point fingers at others
but look in the mirror at ourselves.
When I first got to New Orleans, I was hired by ACORN—the Association
of Community Organizations for Reform Now—as Director of their
sister organization, AMFM—Affiliated Media Foundation Movement.
I composed grant applications to secure funds to acquire radio
and television broadcast stations low-income people could use
to organize their communities and fight for their unbelievably
overlooked rights.
Eventually, though, I had a vision to open an art gallery.
Two mornings in a row, as I was waking from sleep, the image
was very vivid. I saw clearly the walls, and the majestic portrait
of a woman over the mantle, with a glass vase of long purple
irises and green stems sitting upon it. A commercially and residentially
zoned space was becoming available in the racially and economically
diverse St. Thomas/Irish Channel neighborhood. A jewelry-maker
friend found it and asked if I was interested in becoming her
roommate. She also considered opening a jewelry shop there.
Then she declined from both options. My vision and the place
that it would manifest came together.
All sorts of help was provided by the universe and I listened
intently to the inner voice guiding me. During my first week,
I “heard” that children would be coming in for an art class
that was to be held at the Gallery, which incidentally was named,
DIVERCITY Intercultural Art Gallery. I had to assume that I
would be “teaching” it—I did not consider myself an artist at
the time, let alone having taken any art classes—I had not.
Sure enough, the next week, scores of students poured into the
Gallery from the street on their way home from school. Most
of them lived in the St. Thomas public housing community around
the corner, made famous by the story of Sister Helen Prejean,
in the film, “Dead Man Walking”. The young people were mesmerized
by the art on the walls and began shouting questions at me,
“Can you do that? I want to learn to do that! Can you teach
me how to do that?” Having previously received my “instructions”,
though no art instruction, I said, “Sure, come back next Tuesday
and we will have art class.”
A number of young people came the following Tuesday and I was
prepared. It was true that I did not know where I would get
the money for the art supplies, but that did not end up a problem.
You see, after the young people came the first day, I immediately
called an organizer friend of mine, George Andrews, and we combed
Magazine Street together on his lunch break, requesting generous
store owners to contribute to the DIVERCITY fund, and not only
did we collect $50 for supplies, we also received in-kind donations
from National Art Supply at the very top of Magazine Street.
That was when I became very good at asking for things from people
that I never would have had the courage to do, were I not feeling
completely led by my vision. We always got exactly what we needed.
Many wonderful events and classes, gatherings and experiences,
ensued. The intention of the art and the Gallery was to bring
together humans from diverse cultures to explore, educate, and
build awareness of the beauty of diversity as well as the pain
of oppression, while building relationships in a supportive
environment. DIVERCITY events included:
- Weekly art classes for young people living in St. Thomas
Public Housing
- Art openings featuring the work of artists of diverse cultures
- Monthly poetry readings featuring pieces on cultural diversity
- Slide presentations on the 1789 Slave Revolt as well as
the Beijing Women’s Conference
- A Jewish/African-American Seder and Tree-Planting Ceremony
- Banner-Making and Marching in the MLK Jr. Holiday Parade
- Writing, Directing, and Performing a Play about Social Oppression
and Conflict Resolution at the MLK Holiday Schools Event,
for which we received a standing ovation from 700 huemyns
- National Coalition Building Institute (NCBI) Prejudice-Reduction
workshops
- Re-Evaluation Counseling community-building workshops
- Community Potluck Dinners
- A “Love Whomever You Want” DIVERCITY Valentine’s Day Party
Due to creepy landlords, the Gallery closed after a year despite
my efforts to keep it open. I had not yet learned how to really
organize allies to stand with me and fight with me for justice,
which is what I have learned more about since that time. I also
knew in my heart that there had to come a time when I would
attend graduate school, and it made sense for me to do it then
before getting further and further into such projects requiring
my life commitment. One other thing I was sure of by the end
of the Gallery stint, was that I was an artist, and I longed
to see how far I could take my own work.
I was accepted to George Mason University’s Institute for Conflict
Analysis and Resolution the following year, to earn an M.S.
in Conflict Analysis and Resolution in 1999. This program is
considered the best in the country and is well-known internationally.
I had a grand learning experience there. However, I again wondered,
“How could the country’s preeminent conflict resolution program
offer no specialized courses in racism or interracial conflict
in the United States?” The ICAR program is very internationally-focused,
and I believe we are huemyn all over the world, and we are all
in need of help with our conflicts and in need of skilled professionals,
but what about the issues here at home? Let’s take care of our
own backyard first before we go and mow somebody else’s lawn
that somehow looks more glamorous or manageable perhaps.
While at George Mason, I presented my first one-woman art show,
“Painting Bridges to Peace” as part of a course I created, which
included a research paper on the significance and potential
of art in conflict transformation and social change. I have
an abbreviated version of this paper that I am happy to provide
for the asking.
Upon my graduation from ICAR, I was invited to work for John
Fernandez, one of the country’s top diversity experts, focused
on consulting among Fortune 500 organizations. I worked with
John for almost two years, in organizations such as The Carrier
Corporation, The Thomson Corporation, Lucent Technologies, Parke-Davis
(bought recently by Pfizer), and others. John gave me a fantastic
introduction to the world of big business and diversity work
in Corporate America, an education that I could only receive
by taking part in it.
This is how I came to be in Philadelphia, which is the place
from which I currently operate DIVERSITY ARTS art studio and
my diversity consulting and conflict transformation practice.
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